What to do..

I sit here and I think to myself  "Am I doing the right thing?"  I never realized that this would be my true trial in life.  And now that I see it, I'm not sure what to do.  

Utah State is a great school.  I hated it at first.  So much did I hate it that I was, without a doubt, moving back to Ogden.  But then over Christmas Break something changed.  My attitude?  My thoughts?  My feelings?  I'm not sure.  It might have been all of those and it might have been none.  But one thing I know for sure is that I am suppose to stay in Logan.  I need to go to this school.  And nothing..  I REPEAT NOTHING..  will stop me.  

I have decided I will live here and I will finish school.  I will not transfer unless that is what I need to do at the time.  I will stay where I need to be.  

But...

I'm worried.  Have I gotten in over my head?  Did I say the wrong thing when I promised?  What do I do?! I have done this so many times but I just can't do it again.

I know what I need to do for me.  And I know that I will not change what I know to be true to make someone else happy.  As much as I want to...   This is a time in my life when I need to do what is in the better for me.

Nothing will stop me.

Nothing will change my mind.

The Beginning

Today is January 13th 2009.  It is a new school semester in college and I've got a pretty good schedule.  But that is not why this is the beginning.  My roommate and I discovered today that someone close to us has had a hard time this last month.  Her brother was killed.  When we found out we were lost for words or what to do.  She did not even tell us about it, but yet we found out through her blog about this tragedy.  It is a horrible thing but  We know that through our religion and our believes that he is in an amazing place.  Not just an amazing place but the best place someone could be.  Our Heavenly Father and our brother are taking care of him and he is safe.  It is a hard thing to lose someone close to you (believe me, I know) but it is always helpful to remember one of the simplest songs.  "I have a family here on Earth.  They are so good to me.  I want to share my life with them for all eternity.  Families can be together forever.  Through Heavenly Father's Plan.  I always want to be with my own family, and the Lord has shown me how I can.  The Lord has shown me how I can."

And on that note.  I end this.  

To my close friend and her family.  I love you and hope you never forget our Father's Plan